I am here before you a living testimony of unconditional love, hope, and faith. I now realize that the Lord has a strong calling on my life, and what I have been through was only necessary. God has anointed me to show others the way to salvation. I had to feel their heartaches to relate from the heart. How can I show anyone how to get through the rain and see the sunshine, unless I have been there? Some of you can identify with one or more of these hardships I have experienced. Witnessing the verbal, mental and brutally physical abuse towards my mother, betrayed by loved ones, sexually abused physically and mentally, and punished by enduring a long imprisonment, for defending three of my four children who were also sexually abused at a young age. When my children were abused, the consequences were far greater than I could have imagined. My protective superiority instinct kicked in, reinforced by how much I love my children, was hard for me to give up as I listen to my baby's anguish of pain. From experience (6 thru 15 years old) I had been sexually brutalized, my innocence was torn from me. Something I could not get back, as much as I wanted to. When I reached my teens, I tried hard to survive impossible circumstances. Trauma like that sticks with you and the ramifications last forever. Through the pain of my children, I was outraged, and sought revenge. Pain, deceit, and murder followed. I understand and realize now that my desire for justice was right, but my ways of achieving it were wrong. In realizing my reactions to my children's abuse was wrong, I acknowledge that my thoughtless avenging would take me from them, hurting them more so a second time. My ugly rage completely blinded me to what was right. I jumped at a solution because it was the lesser of two evils but still was not the right action to take. Even though I did not know it at the time, it took some years, but at some point, by hard experience the painfulness and the destructive consequences of my actions, led me to put my emotions aside, where I studied the horrid events that took place when I was 6 to 15, and then with my children at every angle. It was not easy to change the way I thought and felt about the situation. I had to use my mind, and not my emotions. When those horrid events crept into my head, I hurriedly thought with my brain. Which led me to seek help and to strengthen that cry for help with God and rehabilitation towards a stronger and positive self.  I am sorry for what happened, and the part I played in it. I owe my children so many explanations and apologies. I can only hope that over the years, my children were able to take some of the good pieces of me to make themselves whole. Right now, I am living in hell, fighting the inclination not to give up hope every day. Though I have left my past in the past, my future so far is still undetermined by the present. Today and for the rest of my life, I will use the mistakes I have made in the past as my constant motivation to be a testimony for God and to live in peace. During my incarceration, I sought to find God, heal, and rehabilitate myself.  Listed below are my spiritual, mental, and physical accomplishments: GED obtained--08-06-2001---09-28-2001. (RPP CLASSES TAKEN THROUGHOUT THE BOP STARTING 2001 TO PRESENT): RPP/Inmate Wellness Program RPP/#4 USPO and Supervision RPP/#5 Release Requirements RPP/#4 CCC Rules and Regulations RPP/#2 Employ-Skills Work Habit RPP/#3 Career-Consumer RPP/#6 House of Healing RPP/#6 Anger Management Group RPP/#6 Womens ISS Domestic Violence RPP/#6 Women’s ISS Healthy Relationship RPP/#6 Stress Management RPP/#6 Women’s ISS Family Traps RPP/#6 Living Free RPP/#6 Women’s ISS Control RPP/#6 Women’s ISS Drug Abuse RPP/#1 AIDS Awareness RPP/#1 Developing Insight RPP/#6 Coping Skills RPP/#6 Managing Stress RPP/#6 Managing Angry/Feelings RPP/#2 Customer Service RPP/#1 HIV Facts (IN ADDITION TO): OST 1324 Business Math-Cert ACE 32 Hour Eve/Weekend LGL RSCH Mar 2011 PRIN Marketing AS/Cert True Colors Program Anger Resolutions Program IT Today Ace Class 30 hours MS Word-Exp, 54 hours MS Suite-Mar, 177 hours (PG) Anatomy ACE-PARANORMAL STATE CLS SEASON 1 ACE Class: Accounting 1 Planet Earth Film Study (I taught 50 students for a year) ACE Class:  Using Electronic Law Library Rec Wellness Class:  Nutrition ACE Class:  Lost Civilizations (PG) PCTC-Resume and Interviewing (PG) PCTC-Resume Construction Intro to Entrepreneurship PCTC Business Analysis PCTC Adjusting to Prison Ace Class-Keyboarding Healthy Aging Wellness Class Info Job Fair Participants RP2 CRC Workshop Conflict Resolution Silver Star Yoga Women’s Rest Based Fitness Samford University-Ministry Training Institute-Effective Disciple Maker/2020 Correspondence Course 07-26-2010/04-06-2012 Ace Class:  Life on Earth Won Davis Putter-Scholarship 2012-2013 Understand Nutrition Fit4Life Program Boundaries Class (Chaplain Floyd) FPI Unicor (was certified through the Department of Labor) Unicor Scholarship 3rd and 4th Quarter FY10 Award FPI Tallahassee-Automatic Data Processing (ADP) *Keyed patients for companies nationwide (confidential), promoted to editing patients. FPI Danbury— *Certified Soldering, promoted to rework table for entire factory. FPI Waseca Unicor--ISO 9001:2008 Internal Auditor Trainer * Sewer for Sew 2 (Marine Shorts), promoted to material handler for Sew 3 (Air Force Shorts), passed QA Test, promoted to Quality Assurance (QA), in charge of measurements for cut table for entire factory. Completed Dr. Hart (PSY—Resolve Coordinator) *The Trauma in Life Workshop (2018) *Seeking Safety (2019) *Cognitive Processing Therapy (2020) *The Trauma in Life Workshop (2018) *Seeking Safety (2019) *Cognitive Processing Therapy (2020) Completed Mrs. A. Black, (Drug Treatment Specialist) * The Foundation Program (2019) I am formerly one of 7 inmates to work in the Special Housing Unit (SHU) in the FBOP from general population. Presently, I am an 18-year Certified Suicide Companion/Mentor, through the FBOP and currently housed in a work cadre unit.  As a work in the cadre unit, our primary mission is to provide a work force for the institution, and I am among the 80 cadre workers that is performing a service not ordinarily a part of the inmate regular assignment due to Covid-19 which are: *Voluntary acceptance and satisfactory performance of an unusually hazardous assignment and an act which protects the lives of the staff and inmates alike. Due to the heightened stress of the Covid-19, this is demanded of all inmates who work in the cadre unit. As for my plans when I am released, I plan to reenter into society, taking with me a stable and healthy mind.  I will live with my daughter (Breanna Ferrell 706-239-7586) and granddaughter (Ma’Kenvley Janiyah) of Las Vegas, NV.  I will avail myself with programs such as a suicide counseling, domestic violence, and trauma.  I will seek employment in these fields, which I believe my knowledge and years of experience I have obtained while incarcerated can be used to minister to the needs of others. In advance, I thank you for taking out time in your day to read my profile.  I pray that your mercy and grace will extend you signing my clemency. May God Bless You. Respectfully, Sandra Ferrell With my PSI, the prosecutor lied and said I served 5-7 years in a Framingham Prison in Mass. He omitted out of my PSI that my sentence was suspended, and I was given 2 years’ probation for the charges against my father in 1987, a case that had been sealed due to my age. The judge was under the impression after viewing my PSI that I served 5-7 in a state prison for what was mentioned by the prosecutor on this case. All of this is included in my clemency, with the court transcript from Suffolk Mass.

Hi, my name is Saundra Ferrell